"I regret the first time I had sex. I was too foolish and naive believing that everybody has been doing it but really, they're not."

I still remember how the wind breeze brushes to our faces that moment. Nothing can be heard except for the silent whispering of leaves through the winds. No one else was there. I am with her and, we are alone.

It didn't came into my mind that a great situation like this will happen. Less I wasn't prepared. Least I am happy.

Too much silent. Too much boredom. Yeah it kills us. From a simple touch of hand. To a tight grip. We are playing like kids in a game not meant for them. Tongues seems at war like sabers and swords. My hands were like water poured and spilled at her body. While her's chain locked at my neck. Too much intensity. Heat rises up, the natural aircon fades. Perspiration is evident. Silent screams of pleasures resonates with squeaks from the engaging mouths. It feels utterly good.

It wont be over yet. Least it just got started. I still remember the way I pointed up, which means I wanted to go up. Yeah in heaven, but actually, on my room. Our body was glued while walking up the stairways. In my room, the clash did continued on my mushy bed. Little by little, and now we're completely unconcealed. My mind exclaimed, "This is the most beautiful landmark I've ever seen!". I can feel much more of her heat. Too much to explore, the saber wont get tired. The water still spilling. Perspiration more evident. The resonance increased.

As what I had said, I wasnt prepared. But still, we kept on going. It was never been easy for us, will always be for every newbie. I wanted to stop as I dont want to see her cry more. It was a confusing mix up, her tears from pain and another slicky liquid from her pleasure. And so the rythmic movements did started. The frequency of resonance increased inevitably. Still, the leaves were dancing in a tune the wind sings as we reached the highest pedestal known only by us.

Weeks did passed.

Delayed period. Worries. Fear. Regrets. All were running in my mind, as well as her's too. Something's really not going good. A big problem. Really it is. I dont know what to do. Abortion? Suicide? All are insane options. Im getting paranoid about it, and Im sure she does too. "I wont leave you. I will take care of you. I love you." those words did helped to prevent her sanity to gave up.

There is no way of escaping this through abortion. I doesnt want to risk. If using crazy medications to drop the child failed, it would live up as an abnormal one. I dont like it. If using crazy and painful exercises failed, I might loose a wife. I dont like it more.

So there is no choice but to face our mistake. We tried to get on with our lives. Mental tortures always occurs at my head. "how we will able to give a decent life to that child? How we are going to live? How will they accept this?" but I know she suffers more, even with physical pain for her young body.

I was 19 and she was 18. I can still remember how her parents and house elders talked to us. I never thought that the next time I'll be talking to them was with that issue. We didn't hide it, because it cant be helped. If they love us, they will understand us. It's hard for them. All their dreams for their daughter banished in reality. On my side, it's the same. I just did proposedly that my girl will live in our house. Her parents agreed. Mine dont seem to have objection. It was so much pride tearing to me as I was so dependant on my parents. What had happened was, we got married, I continued on schooling, while she stays on our house, taking care of the angel inside her.

It was never been easy for me. As how my friends and peers that knew me sees me. No one did thought that a guy like me will be engaged in this kind of situation. But that didn't drive me to stop reaching for my dreams of giving a decent life to my wife and my baby, my own family. I did strive hard. Though I also got peer pressure problems with my wife's friends and peers.

It was never been easy for her. Least I also feel pain everytime I see her aching for something in her. This was completely inverted feeling from what had happened months ago. All I can do is to give her all the things she wanted. All the comforts I can offer. I never fail to be a husband to her, I took good care of her, I really love her.

I was so completely nervous and nulled and worried and excited while we were on the hospital. I just thought that father might also been like this when I was about to be born. Few hours passed, they brought me my first angel, a baby girl. It looks like just her mother, her skin tone, her nose and her lips.

Then a year later, I never thought I would be celebrating four occassions: being licensed as a nurse, my daughter's first birthday, our third year anniversary as boyfriends, and lastly, her death anniversary.

*fiction*

This note is to inform the public on what is a Jejeje/Jejemon.

Usually seen around social networking sites such as Friendster and Multiply, jejemons are individuals with low IQs who spread around their idiocy on the web by tYpFing LyK diZS jejejeje, making all people viewing their profile raise their eyebrows out of annoyance. Normal people like you and me must take a Bachelor of Arts in Jejetyping in order to understand said individuals, as deciphering their text would cause a lot of frustration and hair pulling.

CAUTION: THESE INDIVIDUALS ARE BREEDING! THEY CAN BE SEEN WRECKING GRAMMATICAL HAVOC ON FACEBOOK TOO!

Jejemons are not just confined to trying-hard Filipino gangsters and emos. A Jejemon can also include a variety of Latino-Hispanic fags who enjoy typing "jejejejeje" in a wider context, much to the disdain of their opponents in an internet MMORPG game such as Ragnarok and DOTA.

Basically anyone with a low tolerance in correct punctuation, syntax and grammar. Jejemons are usually hated or hunted down by Jejebusters or the grammar nazi to eradicate their grammatical ways.
On AIM or YM:



example of jejetyping:

miSzMaldiTahh111: EoW pFuOh!

You: Huh?

miszMaldiTahh111: i LLyK tO knOw moR3 bOut u, PwfoH. crE 2 t3ll mE yur N@me? jejejejeje!

You: You are a jejemon! Don't talk to me, you uneducated retard!





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4 Reasons Why You Will Be Happy on April 4


1. It’s the first weekend of April! And it’s the weekend after payday! Oh yeah!
2. The carnivore in you will resurrect because the Lent is over!
3. Those who will successfully fool you on April Fool’s Day, mark this day as the Day of Vengeance.
4. If you’re one of the 25 million Globe, Tattoo and TM subscribers, you will receive a message from 4438 and it will make you happy. Trust me.

4 Important, Groundbreaking Events in History that Fell on April 4


1. On April 4, 1968, Apollo 6 was launched. Zoom!
2. On April 4, 1983, Space Shuttle Challenger made its maiden voyage!
3. On April 4, 1969, the first temporary artificial heart was implanted by Dr. Denton Cooley. Doctors save lives, indeed!
4. On April 4, 2010, 25 million Globe, Tattoo and TM subscribers will receive a “happy” message from 4438

3 More Cool Moments in History that Occurred on an April 4


1. On April 4, 1964, the Beatles held the top five positions of the Billboard Hot 100 chart. “Can’t Buy Me Love” topped the chart, followed by “Twist and Shout,” “She Loves You,” “I Want to Hold Your Hand” and “Please, Please Me.”
2. On April 4, 1979, legendary Australian actor Heath Ledger was born. Rest in Peace.
3. On April 4, 2010, a text message from 4438 will make 25 million Globe, Tattoo and TM users happy.

8 Occasions to Celebrate on April 4!


1. Easter Sunday. Let’s go egg-hunting!
2. The Feast of Isidore of Seville!
3. International Day for Landmine Awareness and Assistance. Help spread the word. Help save lives.
4. Senegal’s Independence Day
5. Start of the National Week of the Ocean in the US. I think we should have the same here in the Philippines since we care about the ocean just as much.
6. In Taiwan and Hong Kong, it’s Children’s Day!
7. GameOps.net, the pioneer gaming blog in the country, will be relaunched!
8. The day 25 million Globe, Tattoo and TM subscribers will be happier than ever because of 4438.

No one knows what was it but two things is certainly sure: 1. 4438 , when pressed while t9 dictionary is activated will type the word GIFT. And lastly, 2. Its my birthday! Yeehaw! :)

It's 100% legit and truly pays off(Look at the proofs at the bottom). Have a Great Day Earning!


Let's Start!


1. First of all you need to be logged-in in your Facebook account and go to this link :



[CLICK ME]



2. Study the application first and conceptualize. (This is important because it will give you some hint)

3. “Allow” the Application.

4. Do you see the “+Make $$$ Creating an App”? Click it!



5. “Allow” again the next application.


6. Now, there are the list of the application that you can create.






Personality Quiz App

Determine your friends' personality type through a series of multiple choice questions. We will compute the closest match based on the users' answers.



Virtual Gifting App



Create an app where you can send virtual gifts to friends with ease. Popular examples of gifting apps include "Friend Hug", "Sends Kisses", and "Send Sweets".



Scored Personality Quiz App


Similar to Personality Quiz except that users' results are scored on a scale. Use this template to create "How Smart/Fat/Sexy/___Are You?" style quizzes.



Trivia/Knowledge Quiz App


Become Alex Trebek from the hit game show Jeopardy with this App Creation Tool. Create a trivia or knowledge quiz and stump your friends with your infinite wisdom.


Name Decoder App




Invent your own grammar and dictionary to build funny and creative names of your friends using each of the letters in their name.



7. At this point, I personally recommend creating a “Virtual Gifting App” because it is the easiest and the best way to attract people. Think of a topic which you think will attract people.


8. Go to Google.com and search for some images which are related to your app. And get as much as you can. This will make your App more popular. The more choices they have, the more the user.


9. Fill in the information needed. The description is one of the powerful persuader because it is the thing you can read before allowing the App. Use a nice photo and click next. And then, I accept.






10. In the next page, it says that it recommend to lock your gift. But I don’t recommend it because the more the choices they have the user. (See, I told you to conceptualize the App that I gave)







11. In step 3, this is the time that you will upload all the images that you need. It will take time but it’s worth it. The minimum gift is 5, but I really recommend having many photos. Click next.


12. I will be skipping now this part because I think that this is so easy. Even my dog can follow it. And there is an instruction.


13. There! You have successfully created a new App! Congratulations but you’re not yet done. You might ask, where will they send me the money? So click “Getting Paid”.






14. Fill the information needed and your good to go!


15. After a couple of hours you will receive an e-mail from AppBank telling you that you can now log in to you AppBank account.








PROOFS:

The moment I was writing this, I feels like I wanna die. So as when I close my eyes, my soul leaves my body and it will be blown by the wind in a constant oblivion. I doesnt even understand why I can still write a post at this moment. It may never help, the closing of my eyes pushes only salty raindrops that pours on my bed instead of vanishing away my life.

The moment I had reached this paragraph, I am calm now. I remembered how I keep on smashing my forehead with this hard pillow, it helped. As well as how I transferred an applied force from my fist to the rough walls in my room, it helped. Really, I am calm now.

I wont forget how my heart shouts "Why?! Why?! Why?!", in response of every hit I made with the pillow and the walls. It's a shout that was just a whispher in my brain, I doesn't reall know why.

Why are we like this? Why are you like that? I cant answer as well as asking it to you. Dumb and poor Ian. Confounded with his horrible demise.

I always wants the best for you. I always be the person you want me to be. I always do what you want me to do. I always give you what you want. I always understand your childish acts. I always, try. I always loved you.

In fact, you are killing me. Physically painlessly, emotionally a long enduring pain. It depreciates my soul and mind and heart. It was never like this, it would, I thought. When you are angry, I always do my best to make you feel ok. To make things ok. To fix everything. I am risking all just for these childish-role-playing games you want us to play. But I never insisted. Never you had heard that I was sick and tired of this stuffs. Because I know, all will be lost as the game be over.

All I want now is, stop playing with my heart. If you need a please, then I could offer a billion. (the moment I was here in this part, I am crying again, silly tears plus gravity). Can you love me as how I love you? I thought of beautiful things and dreams for the two of us. Built the tommorrows on clouds. But all was a sudden dream destined to be a diffused in the atmosphere in reality.

I Love You. And still I cant even let you go. If you'll be gone, I'll be on my worst end. I wish tommorrow will be something better. It's not my fault nor being a self protecting idiot, I just know myself more than anyone so as you, as how you never fails to make me feel useless and worthless fool through your words and actions. Its about you. Gusto ko ibalik mo na kasi yung dating ikaw. Good night, for good. :(

It seems like yesterday's dream has ended its nauseatic scent around the area I am standing right now. It's never really like this before. Long before when I had met Magic. What had happened here was a silent war which my heart lost and triumphed by my intrinsic imagination.

Distorting my presence and focusing away from the environment, the winds of time played on me, again. There she was coming over me with her friend Jona. Staring with a grin. I just remembered, I am not alone in that place. I had excluded myself too much from this environment. They talked to their friend and when they are nearly leaving, broke the distortion I had brewed.

"Hi Shaun?!" on a soft voice that can calm the oceans but ironically put a storm with roaring thunders on my chest, with her angelic smile that made me fall for here, thousand times before. She had greeted me.

A smile was the only word my heart can respond. Even saying her name seems a hard one for me. Least I can shout it when she wouldn't hear it. But at this very moment, I cant help but to like the situation.

"Uy... Magka-cutting ka na naman ah.XD. Tara mag Elex na tayo.." with a smile again. She never misses to make that heartmelting looks whenever my eyes land on her. Toying on me she said that words. I like it when she's doing that. I feel some sort of easiness and not negatively affected of the mistake I had done couple of months ago.

Then I said, "Tara!" with the smile I had honed that's uniquely for her. We walked by at the same pace and Jona from behind. I bet she gets the situation. And that's good. It was her same feeling again, least I can also feel it. She's not used to it, when I'm around her. Giving up on the situation, she said, defensively,
"Isusumbong kita kay Magic." Escaping her trap with a smile again. But this time that smile has some sort of uneasiness.

It cant be helped. Im on my constant motion of being at her side. And somewhat feeling that I want to hold her hands, put my arms around her, but its not appropriate. Putting a self control mechanism, I just did hold my hands so as they cant do such a thing.

I now know her weakness. But why does she keeps on teasing me? Echoed in my mind her voices of minutes ago. I am confused. But still, I like this scene. I shall not be doing a thing that would stop the film of this melancholic moments from rolling.
"Papasok ka ba?" Raze asked Jonah, casting a defense mechanism buff again on self.
"Oo." Jonah answered.
"Ako hindi. Heheh. Bye!"

I never thought that the next post I will publish, after a month, will be something like:

TOP 100 MOST HANDSOME PINOY BLOGGERS



oh yeah. You've heard it right! I've never really been in competitions like that, even in my student life, and even in my wildest dream!

Well, this is it!
It's for fame and no shame! It's for fun. Yes, only for fun.
At first I doesnt even care about this event, but when I was nominated by bok Dan, lets give it a try. Lets get it on! For popularity purposes only.Hahah

Voting is now Open!

How to Vote?

Just pick your choice from the LIST OF CANDIDATES FOR THE TOP 100 MOST HANDSOME PINOY BLOGGERS FOR 2010.
You can vote a maximum of 10 contestants.
Voting via Blog: Go Here. And comment there as: I vote for #56! or any numbers you wanna vote. ;)
Voting via FaceBook: Go Here. And message it there as: I vote for #56! or any numbers you wanna vote. ;)
Take note! You can vote for 10!

Like this:

I vote for candidates #56 and #55!

thats it! Vote for me. Im #56. ;)
good luck to all! Thanks for those who will vote.

"Somewhere in the blogosphere, where male bloggers gathers, showcasing their faces.. Eh? But blogging isnt about how good your looks is, it's how better you write and connect to your readers.XD right eh?"